August 2011
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I am deleting this blog. Thanks for the fun though! Follow me at withloveaudrey or pearlsandparis : )
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L-O-V-E
He told me he loved me.
He said “I hope you know that I do love you” “I have for months”
God I love him.
And it feels so good to say it! I love him!
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Wanderlust, wonderlust
I want to go somewhere, anywhere.
I want to explore.
I want to live in a country not my own.
I want to call somewhere home that it so unlike anything I’ve seen before.
I want to travel.
I want to go.
July 2011
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someone who matters
Every summer my family goes to a lake house the last weekend of July. Because of college and work and weddings I haven’t been in several years.
Four years ago today, I met with my high school boyfriend at the park beside an old elementary school right before my family left. He cried as he told me he didn’t think we could be together anymore. We had been together almost a year. ...
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doubt
the hardest part is when i’m not with him. cause thats when the doubts come.
but how much of the doubts are worth listening to? And which are only worth ignoring?
How do you know when someone is right for you?
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Commitment doesn't scare me. The thought of...
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unoriginal: adj. lacking originality; trite.
Do you ever have moments where you feel completely unoriginal? Like there is nothing you could write or sing or capture that someone could do better?
Its one of the few things I get low about. I have all this creativity, and no where to let it out. I want people to see it and feel it, but I don’t want to look foolish… and unoriginal.
An adjective that undoubtably describes me, that I cant seem...
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“I never confused what I had with what I was.”
— Jonathan Safran Foer
My mom and I had a argument this weekend. To you, this may seem common, but my mom and I never aruge.
We walked into a winery, and I said something along the lines of this is so beautiful I wonder if you can get married here. The second we were alone in the car she stated several times that ”I need to wait to get married” “not do what all my...
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"I'm not going anywhere"
I am a commitmentphobe. Seriously. The idea of promising forever to someone scares the living daylights out of me. I’m 21. I don’t want to make life decisions right now.
Today he and I were talking about life after graduation. Would we live together? Where would we live? Are we crazy enough to actually do what we want to do and move to France? Is that crazy?
The best part is...
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I'm city. He's country.
When you date someone in high school, all that matters is them. You come from the same area, you know their family, their house, and all their dirty little secrets. College dating is much different. Who you manage to fall in love with in college could be from what seems like another world.
I grew up in a suburb of a large city. My high school graduating class was more than my boyfriends...
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stupid love
then he texts me ‘hello goregous’ this morning and my eyes roll and my heart flips at the same time. stupid love.
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picking battles.
picking battles is usually my forte. i have never been one of those crazy girls who gets mad about everything. but when your boyfriend tells you he wants to go out into the wilderness to live for a year, no contact with anyone- consider battle picked.
it was semi-hypothetical. the odds of him actually choosing to be a hermit for a year are minuscule. to me its almost laughable, to him its a...
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terrified
i am terrified all the time. that one day you will wake up and realize i am not the one for you. or worse, i’ll realize you’re not the one for me. it won’t be tomorrow, or next week, or maybe not even next year. but one day, its possible. you won’t love me anymore. i wont love you. or maybe you never loved me.
but i can’t say that. i have never felt anything...
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12:07
when i go to bed at night, most every night, i wish he was here. i never thought i would be this girl who was so wrapped up in someone.
last night i woke up in the middle of the night because he had just kissed my shoulder. even in the middle of the night he is so sweetly himself.
June 2011
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I need this.
I have the most wonderful life. Its not always easy, sometimes it sucks, but its mine. And maybe no one will ever see this, but that’s okay. I need this. And its mine.
I’m 21. I have a severe case of wanderlust that will never be matched. I have an amazing family. I am lucky enough to have an amazing guy in my life, who I am scared to death to have any kind of real commitment...