terrified
i am terrified all the time. that one day you will wake up and realize i am not the one for you. or worse, i’ll realize you’re not the one for me. it won’t be tomorrow, or next week, or maybe not even next year. but one day, its possible. you won’t love me anymore. i wont love you. or maybe you never loved me.
but i can’t say that. i have never felt anything as deep as i feel about you. its consuming, clostraphobic. and i’m terrified that you don’t feel the same way.
i catch myself with pictures in my head of us at 30 and 80. i already know our kids would have curly hair, the girls with green eyes and the boys with blue. in the pictures we made our own family, not perfect but happy.
you cant promise me forever. and that terrifies me.
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