“I’m not going anywhere”
I am a commitmentphobe. Seriously. The idea of promising forever to someone scares the living daylights out of me. I’m 21. I don’t want to make life decisions right now.
Today he and I were talking about life after graduation. Would we live together? Where would we live? Are we crazy enough to actually do what we want to do and move to France? Is that crazy?
The best part is I promised myself I would live by myself. That I wouldn’t be one of those girls who goes from parents to college and straight into the arms of a man. But I like his arms. And I want to live with him. But by doing so, I would be ”that girl” i hate who changes her mind because of a boy.
And today he told me its doesn’t matter if I’m scared of commitment, he is not going anywhere.
So, where is the line? By choosing to make these kinds of plans with him am I leading him on? Am I not being true to myself by wanting to live with him?
